i want to break free.

last night i stayed up late drinking exotic juice, playing neopets and listening to queen. it was invigorating. today i've tidied and planned, and i feel refreshed but slightly anxious and i'm not entirely sure why.

she's got a smile that it seems to me reminds me of childhood memories.

so i've got an interview at Cambridge, WHAT ARE THEY THINKING HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA but also kinda wahey :)









i also have offers from Sussex and Brighton, so things are pretty good on the whole uni front. in other news, not much is happening. i have actual CRAZY amounts of work pretty much constantly so that's kinda preoccupying me to the point of insanity - it's sort of invigorating but at the same time it's like BAHH I NEED A FUCKING BREAK.

going to venice for my 18th next week thoughh, so hopefully that'll REJUVENATE me innit :D

All i said to you, all i did for you, seems so silly to me now.

so tegan and sara were a bit good :)

say crack again.

1) she asked me how to spell orange.
2) This is your lunch, OK? I put a dollar in there so you can buy some milk, you can ask one of the big kids where to do that.
3) alyssa; i'm sorry I called you a gap-toothed bitch. it's not your fault you're so gap-toothed.
4) did you have an awesome time? did you drink awesome shooters, listen to awesome music, and then just sit around and soak up each others awesomeness?!
5) Don't have sex, because you will get pregnant and die! Don't have sex in the missionary position, don't have sex standing up, just don't do it, OK, promise? OK, now everybody take some rubbers.
6) 4 for you glen coco, you go glen coco!
7) if you're from africa... why are you white?
8) Gretchen, I'm sorry I laughed at you that time you got diarrhea at Barnes... And I'm sorry I told everyone about it… And I'm sorry for repeating it now.
9) one time, she punched me in the face. it was awesome.
10) SHE DOESN'T EVEN GO HERE!

i just want back in your head.

so today i went to a geography lesson, ate some chinese food and watched seven episodes of eastenders in a row. i also downloaded a couple of ani difranco albums, a belle and sebastian album and a fine frenzy album which is a bit good. i also cried and slept.

i want something GOOD to happen. anything; a kiss from someone nice, a haircut, whatever.

In time I'd find a little way to your heart, down to the general store for nothing specific.

i want:
1) to stop being so vague
2) to stop being so naive
3) to stop being so indesicive
4) a girlfriend.

'She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty
and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By a hand that's touched me
well I feel like something's gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry.'