don't you want to share the guilt?

i dont know how more people haven't got mental health problems
thinking is one of the most stressful things i've ever come across
and not being able to articulate what i want to say drives me crazy
i think i should read more books, learn some new words
my sister used to read the dictionary, i'm gonna to start with that
i'd like to travel i want to see india and the pyramids, a whale and that race with all the bicycles in france
i'm not sure about rivers they scare me
but i love swimming i'm good at it
and when i swim i count the laps and this helps me relax
when i was younger i saw a house burn down and i walked past it everyday for the next six years
derelict black chalky and dangerous i wondered if squatters lived there
i'm still not sure but i know there were not any parties cause it was a shithole
after a while the council got round to tidying up the town
they decided it was an eye sore so they tore it down
behind the house was a wall with a few bits of crappy graffiti and the word cunt written in giant letters and i walked past that
i like going to the park i like walking through it
i like taking my dogs there and friends and i like being alone
i like being able to shout but i wish i could be quiet
when i'm quiet people think i'm sad and usually i am
sometimes when i'm at a really noisy train station one of the ones with the big fat trains like kings cross
i feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out because i have something to say.