I haven't written here for a long time, hello :).
I'm going to university in 16 days, i don't think i'm anywhere near old enough or responsible enough or mature enough for this sort of thing, not in the slightest. i'm also very worried that nobody will like me or that everybody will be skinny, ordinary and narrow minded - however i've heard that this is a common fear so hopefully it'll be okay. i just don't want to be stuck in a dorm/ on a course full of girls interested in diets and clubbing and Usher and hair products and waxing and sex. and i don't want to be stuck in a dorm/ on a course full of boys interested in clubbing and Usher and hair products and beer and sex.
what i DO want is people interested in ani difranco and horror films and late night frivolities and peep show and mash ups and bizarre coincidences and philosophical literature. you know, not to be to specific or anything. everything's a bit odd right now because i want to do things and start new things and change things... but i'm moving away in a bit so is there really any point to anything? and that makes me feel like i should be packing or reading what i'm meant to be reading or something, but i don't feel much like doing that either.
Life used to be lifelike, now it's more like showbiz. i wake up in the night and i don't know where the bathroom is; and i don't know what town i'm in or what sky i'm under and i wake up in the night and i don't have the will anymore to wonder. and everyone has a skeleton and a closet to keep it in and you're mine.
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