some people die by the drop

sorry you're not a winner

i want to do lots of things this weekend.

I hate the stench of coffee on your breath
And I hate to feel it's warmth against my neck
And what right do you have to have nightmares about me
When all I wanted was to sleep?

We have to take the car 'cause the bike's on fire
We cannot trust your friends 'cause they were born liars
And if you don't exist with hearts the size of a house brick
Cease, and desist.

I left your shallow skin and a note on your kitchen sideboard
It read "I have left you, please never try to find me"
This is no existential crisis, just turn your pain into piety
And then set your alarm clock for 4am the next morning

This is how you spell 'HAHAHA, I've destroyed the hopes and the dreams of a generation of faux-romantics". And I'm pleased, I'm pleased.

You walk in from your mother's balcony
Panda-eyed and freezing cold
You bury yourself in my chest to warm
I notice the goosebumps on your arms, millions
And whether it's because of the numbers of hours spent laid facedown on my bed listening to white noise, or, well, obviously it's not, I somehow manage to translate them from braille

The trails on your skin spoke more to me than the reams and reams of half finished novels you'd leave lying all over the place
And every quotation that'd dribble from your mouth like a final, fatal livejournal entry
I know
I am wrong
I am sorry

just like a dream, you are not what you seem.

Things i learnt today:
1) i always feel guilty about not going to school even when i have a right not to.
2) i'm not as good at reading people as i always thought i was
3) approximately 4 people in my entire year (including me) are voting lib dem... the rest are voting tory.
4) i probably know more about Othello than any other Shakespeare play
5) people don't really change
6) The proteins in sperm have a tightening effect on the skin. When sperm is left to dry, the evaporation of the water in it leaves behind protein which can help to reduce wrinkles. While this may be an excellent anti-aging treatment, the obvious downside is that you have to walk around with sperm on your face.
7) i'm insanely attracted to gay men - victims of my lusting atm are Christian from Eastenders, Kurt from Glee and Will Young.

i just love you more

i'm SO in love with kate nash's new album it's getting a bit insane.

http://www.mediafire.com/?k2k5fljimdm

And I wish I could grow up
Wish I could be well behaved
But every time I look her in the eye
I send her to the grave
And that pretty, pretty girl
With her nice neat lips
With your eyes on her chest
And your hands on her hips















































































































i feel a major crush coming on, oh noez

don't you want to share the guilt?

i dont know how more people haven't got mental health problems
thinking is one of the most stressful things i've ever come across
and not being able to articulate what i want to say drives me crazy
i think i should read more books, learn some new words
my sister used to read the dictionary, i'm gonna to start with that
i'd like to travel i want to see india and the pyramids, a whale and that race with all the bicycles in france
i'm not sure about rivers they scare me
but i love swimming i'm good at it
and when i swim i count the laps and this helps me relax
when i was younger i saw a house burn down and i walked past it everyday for the next six years
derelict black chalky and dangerous i wondered if squatters lived there
i'm still not sure but i know there were not any parties cause it was a shithole
after a while the council got round to tidying up the town
they decided it was an eye sore so they tore it down
behind the house was a wall with a few bits of crappy graffiti and the word cunt written in giant letters and i walked past that
i like going to the park i like walking through it
i like taking my dogs there and friends and i like being alone
i like being able to shout but i wish i could be quiet
when i'm quiet people think i'm sad and usually i am
sometimes when i'm at a really noisy train station one of the ones with the big fat trains like kings cross
i feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out because i have something to say.

i haven't had a day alone since i met you

we're stubborn and melodramatic, a real class act

i don't think i can be dealing with this anymore, ffs.

so he thinks of God as like a friend... or lover

today was gooooooood =)
1. Miss Vaugn-neil talking about a guy who sees God as a friend/lover, noticing our awkwardness and going 'well, let's just refer to him as a friend, i can see you're finding it difficult to cope with the lover concept'.
2. flashback of me vomming on katy's piss on Saturday and not noticing for ages, and suddenly going 'okay FUNKY SMELL going on here'
3. Trish - 'let's just put all the radioactive waste on Mars'
4. snorting.. oh god
5. sunny weather!
6. A* in my english essay, boo yah
7. I'M STUCK IN BURMA ON MY GAP YAH CAUSE ICELAND JUST CHUNDERED EVERYWHERE.
8. A in my geography essays, boo yah
9. leisurely stroll to and from school with hardcore headphones going on
10. Caitlin's back! 'Anna's going out with someone and it's NOT a girl?!'
11. noodles that were ACTUALLY cooked for lunch

i'll stop.

i'm sorry that was rude of me, forget i said a thing

sophie says:
boomboompow?
I'M TALKNG PEDICURES ON OUR TOES TOES
i'm downloading the billboard top 100 cause i don't feel like i'm rly IN WITH THE KIDZ
all these songs sound the same though D:
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
dfgdfgdfgd]
I CANT FIND KESHA ON MY COMPUTERS
oh no i found it, it's cool
sophie says:
0.o you just posted me in summat on facebook BUT IT'S NOT AVAILABLE ANYMORE
what are you doing to my life
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
LOL I JUST FELL OVER MY SCHOOL BAG
sophie says:
I FUCKING HATE FEET, SOPHIAAAA DDDDD:
i want to watch an interesting and insightful documentary
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
porn
sophie says:
DONE
ahahahahahhaa you know laura's seeing ertan
well app. anna just goes to laura on facebook chat 'LAURA I KNOW YOU SHAVE'
mmmmmmm scrummy
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
hahahahahahahahaha
hahahahah
unlike anna? XDD
BUSHY BUSHYYY
sophie says:
adfksljfapohgabjf
ewww
YOU'VE PUT ME RIGHT OFF MY PORN SOPHIA
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
HAHAHAHA

idk, i just felt like recording this particular moment in time

this gives me goosebumps.

it's a crazy situation, but all i need are cigarettes and alcohol

bleugh. went to a super posh 18th last night; it was good but i think i got food poisoning D: i also managed to tell pretty much my whole life story to three very random people, not sure this is such a good thing. on the plus side i feel bright and perky this morning, my hair/general appearance isn't terrible and i somehow came home wearing a very snuggly grey hoodie that isn't mine but i might just have to keep.

i've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots.

My brain's repeating
"If you've got an impulse let it out"
But they never make it past my mouth.

Our youth is fleeting,
Old age is just around the bend.
And I can't wait to go grey.

And I'll sit and wonder
Of every love that could've been
If I'd only thought of something charming to say.

i speak because i can

WELL, this has been an interesting day. i'm feeling exponentially happy and confused and frustrated and jealous and grateful to be alive all at the same time; i'm also quite drunk.
on the plus side i have a tragus piercing and it looks fucking awesome.

i'm going to take you for worse or better.

and you never did learn to let me be

i have char to thank for pretty much this entire post :)

In the breaking of the morning you'll be dancing on the soft lawn
You'll be sinking at the anchor that stopped you from taking my gold
You'll be running up the highway singing
"I'm the king the king of you all!
When you look back to where you started I'll be there waving you on.

i'm not made of successful things.

today i've showered and watched too much american idol to be considered acceptable and driven to costcutters and eaten toast and listened to a lot of cat power.

after it all, when its all said and done
will you come back to me and tell me that
it never was up to you or up to me?

and all i really want is some justice

they should really do something like this in England, i swear it would make politics so much more interesting/relevant.

and i have no concept of time other than it is flying

i like
1. ginger people with pointy teeth
2. eating blackcurrant throat lozenges until my mouth goes numb
3. tesco's 100 record cards for £1
4. orange highlighter pens
5. driving.

people are just people, they shouldn't make you nervous.

back from france, it feels good to be home :)