all i wanted from the start was something i could hold in my hands

If I could say anything to anyone:
i'm sorry i'm so obvious but i don't know how else to be cause you never are, and i don't know how else to move things forward... except i don't even know if that's what you want so i feel like a bit of a twat.

If I could do anything:
fly!

I would be thankful for:
having a relatively stable upbringing, my un-homophobic family, growing up in North London so i haven't turned into a Conservative private school stuck up brat.

I would wish to be:
better looking, more motivated, charismatic.

I would wish to see:
oddities

I would wish to be able to:
get 3 As in June.

we're trying to escape inevitability.

1. Black Hole - The Silent Years

2. Rain - Bishop Allen

3. Tonight I Have To Leave It - Shout Out Louds

4. Cigarettes & Alcohol - Oasis

5. This Is Just The Beginning - The Reason

so it's 1pm, and i'm going to be home alone until tomorrow afternoon... i feel a breakdown coming on already; i'm horrendously shit at looking after myself.

this morning i went to Costcutters to buy myself some food for the weekend; i freaked out and ended up buying some dairylea dunkers, a can of red bull, two mangoes and some lime flavoured jelly.

oh goddddd this whole 'reaching maturity' thing better hurry up before i do something very very stupid.