and i would like to be your girlfriend so i could dump you

:)

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

rainy sundays ftw.

some people die by the drop

sorry you're not a winner

i want to do lots of things this weekend.

I hate the stench of coffee on your breath
And I hate to feel it's warmth against my neck
And what right do you have to have nightmares about me
When all I wanted was to sleep?

We have to take the car 'cause the bike's on fire
We cannot trust your friends 'cause they were born liars
And if you don't exist with hearts the size of a house brick
Cease, and desist.

I left your shallow skin and a note on your kitchen sideboard
It read "I have left you, please never try to find me"
This is no existential crisis, just turn your pain into piety
And then set your alarm clock for 4am the next morning

This is how you spell 'HAHAHA, I've destroyed the hopes and the dreams of a generation of faux-romantics". And I'm pleased, I'm pleased.

You walk in from your mother's balcony
Panda-eyed and freezing cold
You bury yourself in my chest to warm
I notice the goosebumps on your arms, millions
And whether it's because of the numbers of hours spent laid facedown on my bed listening to white noise, or, well, obviously it's not, I somehow manage to translate them from braille

The trails on your skin spoke more to me than the reams and reams of half finished novels you'd leave lying all over the place
And every quotation that'd dribble from your mouth like a final, fatal livejournal entry
I know
I am wrong
I am sorry

just like a dream, you are not what you seem.

Things i learnt today:
1) i always feel guilty about not going to school even when i have a right not to.
2) i'm not as good at reading people as i always thought i was
3) approximately 4 people in my entire year (including me) are voting lib dem... the rest are voting tory.
4) i probably know more about Othello than any other Shakespeare play
5) people don't really change
6) The proteins in sperm have a tightening effect on the skin. When sperm is left to dry, the evaporation of the water in it leaves behind protein which can help to reduce wrinkles. While this may be an excellent anti-aging treatment, the obvious downside is that you have to walk around with sperm on your face.
7) i'm insanely attracted to gay men - victims of my lusting atm are Christian from Eastenders, Kurt from Glee and Will Young.

i just love you more

i'm SO in love with kate nash's new album it's getting a bit insane.

http://www.mediafire.com/?k2k5fljimdm

And I wish I could grow up
Wish I could be well behaved
But every time I look her in the eye
I send her to the grave
And that pretty, pretty girl
With her nice neat lips
With your eyes on her chest
And your hands on her hips















































































































i feel a major crush coming on, oh noez

don't you want to share the guilt?

i dont know how more people haven't got mental health problems
thinking is one of the most stressful things i've ever come across
and not being able to articulate what i want to say drives me crazy
i think i should read more books, learn some new words
my sister used to read the dictionary, i'm gonna to start with that
i'd like to travel i want to see india and the pyramids, a whale and that race with all the bicycles in france
i'm not sure about rivers they scare me
but i love swimming i'm good at it
and when i swim i count the laps and this helps me relax
when i was younger i saw a house burn down and i walked past it everyday for the next six years
derelict black chalky and dangerous i wondered if squatters lived there
i'm still not sure but i know there were not any parties cause it was a shithole
after a while the council got round to tidying up the town
they decided it was an eye sore so they tore it down
behind the house was a wall with a few bits of crappy graffiti and the word cunt written in giant letters and i walked past that
i like going to the park i like walking through it
i like taking my dogs there and friends and i like being alone
i like being able to shout but i wish i could be quiet
when i'm quiet people think i'm sad and usually i am
sometimes when i'm at a really noisy train station one of the ones with the big fat trains like kings cross
i feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out because i have something to say.

i haven't had a day alone since i met you

we're stubborn and melodramatic, a real class act

i don't think i can be dealing with this anymore, ffs.

so he thinks of God as like a friend... or lover

today was gooooooood =)
1. Miss Vaugn-neil talking about a guy who sees God as a friend/lover, noticing our awkwardness and going 'well, let's just refer to him as a friend, i can see you're finding it difficult to cope with the lover concept'.
2. flashback of me vomming on katy's piss on Saturday and not noticing for ages, and suddenly going 'okay FUNKY SMELL going on here'
3. Trish - 'let's just put all the radioactive waste on Mars'
4. snorting.. oh god
5. sunny weather!
6. A* in my english essay, boo yah
7. I'M STUCK IN BURMA ON MY GAP YAH CAUSE ICELAND JUST CHUNDERED EVERYWHERE.
8. A in my geography essays, boo yah
9. leisurely stroll to and from school with hardcore headphones going on
10. Caitlin's back! 'Anna's going out with someone and it's NOT a girl?!'
11. noodles that were ACTUALLY cooked for lunch

i'll stop.

i'm sorry that was rude of me, forget i said a thing

sophie says:
boomboompow?
I'M TALKNG PEDICURES ON OUR TOES TOES
i'm downloading the billboard top 100 cause i don't feel like i'm rly IN WITH THE KIDZ
all these songs sound the same though D:
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
dfgdfgdfgd]
I CANT FIND KESHA ON MY COMPUTERS
oh no i found it, it's cool
sophie says:
0.o you just posted me in summat on facebook BUT IT'S NOT AVAILABLE ANYMORE
what are you doing to my life
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
LOL I JUST FELL OVER MY SCHOOL BAG
sophie says:
I FUCKING HATE FEET, SOPHIAAAA DDDDD:
i want to watch an interesting and insightful documentary
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
porn
sophie says:
DONE
ahahahahahhaa you know laura's seeing ertan
well app. anna just goes to laura on facebook chat 'LAURA I KNOW YOU SHAVE'
mmmmmmm scrummy
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
hahahahahahahahaha
hahahahah
unlike anna? XDD
BUSHY BUSHYYY
sophie says:
adfksljfapohgabjf
ewww
YOU'VE PUT ME RIGHT OFF MY PORN SOPHIA
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
HAHAHAHA

idk, i just felt like recording this particular moment in time

this gives me goosebumps.

it's a crazy situation, but all i need are cigarettes and alcohol

bleugh. went to a super posh 18th last night; it was good but i think i got food poisoning D: i also managed to tell pretty much my whole life story to three very random people, not sure this is such a good thing. on the plus side i feel bright and perky this morning, my hair/general appearance isn't terrible and i somehow came home wearing a very snuggly grey hoodie that isn't mine but i might just have to keep.

i've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots.

My brain's repeating
"If you've got an impulse let it out"
But they never make it past my mouth.

Our youth is fleeting,
Old age is just around the bend.
And I can't wait to go grey.

And I'll sit and wonder
Of every love that could've been
If I'd only thought of something charming to say.

i speak because i can

WELL, this has been an interesting day. i'm feeling exponentially happy and confused and frustrated and jealous and grateful to be alive all at the same time; i'm also quite drunk.
on the plus side i have a tragus piercing and it looks fucking awesome.

i'm going to take you for worse or better.

and you never did learn to let me be

i have char to thank for pretty much this entire post :)

In the breaking of the morning you'll be dancing on the soft lawn
You'll be sinking at the anchor that stopped you from taking my gold
You'll be running up the highway singing
"I'm the king the king of you all!
When you look back to where you started I'll be there waving you on.

i'm not made of successful things.

today i've showered and watched too much american idol to be considered acceptable and driven to costcutters and eaten toast and listened to a lot of cat power.

after it all, when its all said and done
will you come back to me and tell me that
it never was up to you or up to me?

and all i really want is some justice

they should really do something like this in England, i swear it would make politics so much more interesting/relevant.

and i have no concept of time other than it is flying

i like
1. ginger people with pointy teeth
2. eating blackcurrant throat lozenges until my mouth goes numb
3. tesco's 100 record cards for £1
4. orange highlighter pens
5. driving.

people are just people, they shouldn't make you nervous.

back from france, it feels good to be home :)

but oh you caught me sleeping in the power sockets

life update:
screaming orgasms in a seedy cocktail bar in Greenwich followed by a gruesome incestuous play of delights, naps and banter in a college i don't go to (QMC), stolen walnut whips and accidental drunk driving, lots of mix cds for jeff, france tomorrow in an attempt to learn 3 A levels worth of shite.

drive away my heart tonight.

the way you move ain't fair you know

une) i now have a third lobe piercing in my left ear, because of my own boredom and foolishness but it looks kinda funky
deux) i now have TWO new sexy mix cds for jeff
trois) ah damn fail

i wanna live like common people do

Well his coat is torn and frayed
It`s seen much better days
Just as long as the guitar plays
Let it steal your heart away

wild horses couldn't drag me away

i'm going through a random Rolling Stones frenzy; i now have 14 of their albums on my itunes, crazy times. they're bladdy good though.

you know i love you, take off your clothes - it's alright, it's alright

oh how i love a bit of neopets first thing in the morning, not that this obsession is getting ridiculous or worrying or anything. i think my arm is infected from where i had my hpv jab so i'm going to the doctors AGAIN - if the nurse used a dirty needle i swear i'm suing.

you always disappoint me; it's kind of like our running joke, it's really not funny.

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I’m taking far too many chances on these less than idealistic romances

I was waiting for a cross-town train
in the London underground when it struck me
That I've been waiting since birth to find a love
that would look and sound like a movie
So I changed my plans, I rented a camera and a van
and then I called you
"I need you to pretend that we are in love again"
and you agreed to.

I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it
The marker snapped and I yelled "quiet on the set" and then called "action!"
And I kissed you in a style that Clark Gable would have admired (I thought it classic).

you did it again, i knew that you would.

1. i had my third HPV jab today and it hurts like a bitch
2. i have some massive arse headache/sicky feeling
3. sussex haven't emailed back about me applying for the wrong uni course and i'm panicking
4. i have lots of homework due in tomorrow that i really can't face right now
5. my cat was found dead in someone's back garden down the road.

it's not a good day :(

these constant broken heartbeats sound like breakbeats.

Plunge your hand, rip out my spine
Replace it with a UV light
So I can be the beacon of hope that you'd always expected.

oh what i'd give and what i'd take for perseverance.

a) i have a timed essay tomorrow which i haven't prepared for
b) i applied for the WRONG fucking course at uni, this could only happen to me.
c) i've lost my hair straighteners
d) i now have BRIGHT PURPLE and BLOCK ORANGE barry m nail varnishes
e) alice in wonderland was super good

nothing will be what it is because everything will be what it isn't.

download it, do it.

up in my lonely room where i'm dreaming of you, oh what can i do? i still need you girl.

so module results today; i got a C in geography which is basically a bit shit cause i need an A to get into Sussex which is where i majorly want to go. my mother was oh so supportive and helpful as usual.

Me: mum, i'm worried i'm not going to get into university.
Mum: well you see, i don't really know what the appropriate maternal response is here. i could tell you that it's all going to be fine and you'll get the grades, but i don't know if you will so that'd be lying. i could tell you that you can always take a gap year and re-apply and it doesn't really matter, but it does matter so i'd also be lying. so i'm going to be honest - i'm fucking shitting myself for you.
Me: ... ta.
Mum: more wine?

i'm not quite sure people really understand/appreciate my mother at her best, so i've provided some visual aids:














this is my aunt Dibs, my sister, me and my mumma (just LOOK at her xD) when we went to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show and my mum insisted that everyone dressed up for it... nobody else was.














mum back when she was cool ish.. i rly wish she had kept that t-shirt so i could sneakily steal it.


















oh madre.

And all my broken hearts, and all my forgettable false starts, well you can have them right now.

when the smaller picture is the same as the bigger picture, you know you're fucked.

so i have laryngitis, yum.

romance is boring.

I don't want to sound trite but you were perfect
The way you look could seriously make nature dysmorphic
I wish that you would kiss me 'til the point of paralysis
The way I flail my arms in front of you, it just embarrasses
I'll never turn my body clock back
And think about the things I'm glad I left out
Some things are best left unsaid.

and i wonder if i'm just built this way.

god i love the french.

if you see me walking down the street and i start to cry, walk on by.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	Very High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:	Moderate
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

Symptoms of Histrionic Personality Disorder:
Needs to be the center of attention
Dresses or acts provocatively
Rapidly-shifting and shallow emotions
Exaggerates friendships
Overly-dramatic, occassionally theatrical speech
easily influenced; highly suggestible

i don't know WHAT they're talking about ish.

she said 'i'll show you a picture of tomorrow, there's nothing changing it's all sorrow'

today i'm going to do some homework and drink some tea and go to katy's house and eat chinese and watch movies and paint my nails and buy some blue tac and maybe go to the bank and um.
i think i'm getting sick :(

and when i see you, i really see you upside down.

take a glorious bite out of the whole world.

bands/artists i've seen live (vaguely in order, ones in italics are my favourites):

2008:
1. Anti Flag
2. Get Cape. Wear Cape. Fly.
3. Taking Back Sunday
4. Dizzee Rascal
5. Biffy Clyro
6. The Enemy
7. The Fratellis
8. Ida Maria
9. The Subways
10. Dirty Pretty Things
11. We Are Scientists
12. Editors
13. The Raconteurs
14. The Killers
15. Mindless Self Indulgence
16. Plain White Ts
17. Feeder
18. Tenacious D
19. Adam Green
20. Cajun Dance Party
21. Mystery Jets
22. Heathers
23. Kimya Dawson

2009:
24. Danananakroyd
25. Manchester Orchestra
26. Airborne Toxic Event
27. Fall Out Boy
28. Jack's Mannequin
29. Kaiser Chiefs (about half their set i think?)
30. Kings of Leon
31. Metric
32. Patrick Wolf
33. Brand New
34. Vampire Weekend
35. Yeah Yeah Yeahs
36. Bloc Party
37. Master Shortie
38. 3OH!3
39. Astronautalis
40. Tegan and Sara

2010:
41. Islet
42. Swanton Bombs
43. Los Campesinos!