sweet dreams, sweet cheeks

I served out my detention
And in the end I got an honorable mention

In the movie of my life
Starring you
Instead of me

When the moonlight
Hits your bright eyes I go blind
And maybe next time
I'll remember not to tell you something stupid like I'll never leave your side

Like the oldest movie I ever saw was the one we wrote together
I said I hate you but I'd never change a thing
I can be your John Cussack

I burnt out
My defensive
Now everything I say is taken as offensive.



















oh how i loved fall out boy before they got shit.

let's all meet up in the year 2000, won't it be strange when we're all fully grown?

oh girl, you have no faith in medicine

1. my philosophy & ethics exam is in approximately 25 days and i don't know much
2. geography literally bored me to tears today and i didn't know that was even possible
3. i get addicted to the sims 3 at the most inappropriate of times
4. i'd like to marry Jack White even though he looks like Gollum sometimes

me: LOOK AT THIS EARRING MUM (shows smiley face earring)
mum: OH YES, VERY 90s RAVE *does some weird dance and sings* E EEZA GOOD E EEZA GOOD
me: MUM WTF
mum: E IS GOOD?! IT'S A 90S SONG ABOUT ECSTASY.. YOU KNOW, THE DRUG
me: OH.. OH RIGHT
mum: ANYWAY NIGHT SOPHIE... OH AND BY THE WAY, DON'T TAKE DRUGS!

i swear she gets crazier by the day. Also my father (who keeps her vaguely sane) is in France until Sunday; lord help me.

you're a million ways to be cruel.

today was okay :)

i'll be coming home for you

Well I don't know what i'm doing here
I could say that I do but I don't
You could wrap a million candles
Into a torch and hope that it steers you home
You could cut all the telephone wires
And hope that nobody does get through
I might not have the power of telepathy
But I'm gonna be contacting you.

Because i borrowed a book that I saw
Was planted deep inside your bag
It gave me an excuse to see you again
But I'm not a thief
I'll give it back

Don't you ever wonder
Who's living in that house
It's too small for people, we all said
'But there's people in the floorboards', said the mouse

And I showed you the things that I'd made
You didn't think that they were too great
But I'm glad that you thought of it
Think what you're taught
Because everybody else's mind is grey

We kept up the act for two
Dates before it needed blue
I didn't drink what you drank
You didn't sink when I sank
So there's little else for us to do

I didn't say goodbye today
Oh I did it the cowards way
I tied it to the net, girl
To see where it gets
To go sailing on
Down your way

But you poured petrol all over
The ship you used to sail the sea
You didn't think that you'd be coming home again
So you said Bye to me

Don't you ever ponder
On things we never said
Yes I did
But when we were kids
Now it's too late
Because we're dead

situations are irrelevant now

let go, this too shall pass

Good:
1) my sister bought me a parrot necklace
2) the book i'm reading is super duper good
3) i don't have much work this weekend
4) i've actually DONE some work this weekend
5) we had a bbq earlier and it was sunny and yummy
6) my hair is less ginger and more even
7) i only have two weeks of school left, ever.

Bad:
1) my first exam is in less than a month
2) i only have two weeks of school left, ever.

A million hours left to think of you and think of that

you are everything i want cause you are everything i'm not.

i've tried to express how i feel but it changes every day

These are the things i'd like to do with my hair (i'm aware of the conflictions):
1. get an afro
2. get dreadlocks
3. dye it white blonde and have it super straight and sleek
4. get a block fringe
5. dye it BRIGHT blue
6. get a curly style that's wild and unruly but in a mangeable frizz free and kooky way - this occurs very rarely, but it is a spontaneous decision of my hair's that i have absolutely no say in.
7. dye it bright red (again)

tonight won't make a difference

how she's different is anyone's guess

1. leaver's assembly today was lovely jubbly and funny and cool.
2. yesterday was shite but today is considerably better :)
3. Wicked Game - Chris Isaak
4. I want more lions!
5. I want to own a lion
6. I want to BE a lion

not a lioness they're shite; a full fledging lion with a WILD mane, an intense roar and a whole lot of pride.

oh, this is getting slightly ridiculous.

sometimes i'm in danger of going too far

We danced together on the roof at the party,
5 stories removed from the troubles on the street
the sun arose revealing goose bumps on your arms
A sign that we should move together somewhere warm.

We moved to the street where they tried to hold curfew
and ran among the debris as the bullets flew.
Helicopters circled overhead to get a better view
We found a doorway, fell in and I held you.

We didnt give a shit about what they would say
and stayed up until the light turned our world/eyes grey.
we caned our money like it was our last day
2 fingers up at those who wont miss us when we pass away.

okay one more

first decent song/video i've found named after a Sophie, happy times!

it's strange what desire will make foolish people do

yes i am aware that my blog is becoming an endless stream of videos, i will write something substantial asap (maybe).

the world was a mess but his hair was perfect.

i know it's gay but i used to friggin' love this song ;D

i know it can't be right, but i just smile

instead of repeating what i said in my head.

Daddy, Daddy, please save the world from the government
Daddy, Daddy, please save my should from my own judgment
Daddy, Daddy, please send me a heart that isn’t made of cement
Cause the money’s all been spent
the money’s all been spent

oh, and i dressed up as a nun and spilt Guinness all over a classroom floor and spoke with an awful Irish accent.

it sounds tacky, but i'm hopeful there's a reason the world turns round.

Today i only had one 15 minute lesson in which we talked about the importance of reputation in Othello. Apart from that, I watched the BBC news in the school canteen from 8:30am until about 3pm amongst a load of Tory supporters and felt a bit awkward but secretly pleased whenever Labour or Lib Dems won a seat (especially Lib Dems cause Clegg's a babe).
I also went to Subway and had a tuna melt, and had a bath and watched 10 episodes of Peep Show and found Cat's debit card in Jeff and straightened part of my hair and now i think i'm gonna go to bed.

all i wanted from the start was something i could hold in my hands

If I could say anything to anyone:
i'm sorry i'm so obvious but i don't know how else to be cause you never are, and i don't know how else to move things forward... except i don't even know if that's what you want so i feel like a bit of a twat.

If I could do anything:
fly!

I would be thankful for:
having a relatively stable upbringing, my un-homophobic family, growing up in North London so i haven't turned into a Conservative private school stuck up brat.

I would wish to be:
better looking, more motivated, charismatic.

I would wish to see:
oddities

I would wish to be able to:
get 3 As in June.

well you think you know someone. you know i like odd people, i appreciate odd people and i'm intending on having solely odd friends in the future with the possible exception of somebody normal but insanely good looking/ rich. and then you go and discover that the exponentially awesomely odd person you love actually lives in a caravan in Dundee with twenty seven parakeets, gang rapes 9 year old boys and eats their own shit. or something.

you're not 19 forever, pull yourselves together

all i need is bejewled and darwin deez and sandwiches and barry m nail varnishes and lions and cheap gigs and cigarettes and alcohol and music and trashy horror films and good horror films and the sun and jeff and you.

every day ought to be a bad day for you

but i'm sorry if it ever is.

wants:
1. new hair
2. money
3. cigarettes
4. darwin deez and his love forever
5. a subway
6. you to love me in the morning when i'm still hungover, to love me when i'm still strung out.


I work hard all week and so do you
We deserve to let off some steam
Less orthodox creeping,
We need to rage through all of this life
There might be ones who are smarter than you
That have the right answers, that wear better shoes
Forget about those melting ice caps
We're doing the best, with what we've got

When I'm with you, I am calm
A pearl in your oyster
Head on my chest a silent smile
A private kind of happiness
You see giant proclamations
Are all very well
But our love is louder than words

and i would like to be your girlfriend so i could dump you

:)

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

rainy sundays ftw.

some people die by the drop

sorry you're not a winner

i want to do lots of things this weekend.

I hate the stench of coffee on your breath
And I hate to feel it's warmth against my neck
And what right do you have to have nightmares about me
When all I wanted was to sleep?

We have to take the car 'cause the bike's on fire
We cannot trust your friends 'cause they were born liars
And if you don't exist with hearts the size of a house brick
Cease, and desist.

I left your shallow skin and a note on your kitchen sideboard
It read "I have left you, please never try to find me"
This is no existential crisis, just turn your pain into piety
And then set your alarm clock for 4am the next morning

This is how you spell 'HAHAHA, I've destroyed the hopes and the dreams of a generation of faux-romantics". And I'm pleased, I'm pleased.

You walk in from your mother's balcony
Panda-eyed and freezing cold
You bury yourself in my chest to warm
I notice the goosebumps on your arms, millions
And whether it's because of the numbers of hours spent laid facedown on my bed listening to white noise, or, well, obviously it's not, I somehow manage to translate them from braille

The trails on your skin spoke more to me than the reams and reams of half finished novels you'd leave lying all over the place
And every quotation that'd dribble from your mouth like a final, fatal livejournal entry
I know
I am wrong
I am sorry

just like a dream, you are not what you seem.

Things i learnt today:
1) i always feel guilty about not going to school even when i have a right not to.
2) i'm not as good at reading people as i always thought i was
3) approximately 4 people in my entire year (including me) are voting lib dem... the rest are voting tory.
4) i probably know more about Othello than any other Shakespeare play
5) people don't really change
6) The proteins in sperm have a tightening effect on the skin. When sperm is left to dry, the evaporation of the water in it leaves behind protein which can help to reduce wrinkles. While this may be an excellent anti-aging treatment, the obvious downside is that you have to walk around with sperm on your face.
7) i'm insanely attracted to gay men - victims of my lusting atm are Christian from Eastenders, Kurt from Glee and Will Young.

i just love you more

i'm SO in love with kate nash's new album it's getting a bit insane.

http://www.mediafire.com/?k2k5fljimdm

And I wish I could grow up
Wish I could be well behaved
But every time I look her in the eye
I send her to the grave
And that pretty, pretty girl
With her nice neat lips
With your eyes on her chest
And your hands on her hips















































































































i feel a major crush coming on, oh noez

don't you want to share the guilt?

i dont know how more people haven't got mental health problems
thinking is one of the most stressful things i've ever come across
and not being able to articulate what i want to say drives me crazy
i think i should read more books, learn some new words
my sister used to read the dictionary, i'm gonna to start with that
i'd like to travel i want to see india and the pyramids, a whale and that race with all the bicycles in france
i'm not sure about rivers they scare me
but i love swimming i'm good at it
and when i swim i count the laps and this helps me relax
when i was younger i saw a house burn down and i walked past it everyday for the next six years
derelict black chalky and dangerous i wondered if squatters lived there
i'm still not sure but i know there were not any parties cause it was a shithole
after a while the council got round to tidying up the town
they decided it was an eye sore so they tore it down
behind the house was a wall with a few bits of crappy graffiti and the word cunt written in giant letters and i walked past that
i like going to the park i like walking through it
i like taking my dogs there and friends and i like being alone
i like being able to shout but i wish i could be quiet
when i'm quiet people think i'm sad and usually i am
sometimes when i'm at a really noisy train station one of the ones with the big fat trains like kings cross
i feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out because i have something to say.

i haven't had a day alone since i met you

we're stubborn and melodramatic, a real class act

i don't think i can be dealing with this anymore, ffs.

so he thinks of God as like a friend... or lover

today was gooooooood =)
1. Miss Vaugn-neil talking about a guy who sees God as a friend/lover, noticing our awkwardness and going 'well, let's just refer to him as a friend, i can see you're finding it difficult to cope with the lover concept'.
2. flashback of me vomming on katy's piss on Saturday and not noticing for ages, and suddenly going 'okay FUNKY SMELL going on here'
3. Trish - 'let's just put all the radioactive waste on Mars'
4. snorting.. oh god
5. sunny weather!
6. A* in my english essay, boo yah
7. I'M STUCK IN BURMA ON MY GAP YAH CAUSE ICELAND JUST CHUNDERED EVERYWHERE.
8. A in my geography essays, boo yah
9. leisurely stroll to and from school with hardcore headphones going on
10. Caitlin's back! 'Anna's going out with someone and it's NOT a girl?!'
11. noodles that were ACTUALLY cooked for lunch

i'll stop.

i'm sorry that was rude of me, forget i said a thing

sophie says:
boomboompow?
I'M TALKNG PEDICURES ON OUR TOES TOES
i'm downloading the billboard top 100 cause i don't feel like i'm rly IN WITH THE KIDZ
all these songs sound the same though D:
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
dfgdfgdfgd]
I CANT FIND KESHA ON MY COMPUTERS
oh no i found it, it's cool
sophie says:
0.o you just posted me in summat on facebook BUT IT'S NOT AVAILABLE ANYMORE
what are you doing to my life
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
LOL I JUST FELL OVER MY SCHOOL BAG
sophie says:
I FUCKING HATE FEET, SOPHIAAAA DDDDD:
i want to watch an interesting and insightful documentary
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
porn
sophie says:
DONE
ahahahahahhaa you know laura's seeing ertan
well app. anna just goes to laura on facebook chat 'LAURA I KNOW YOU SHAVE'
mmmmmmm scrummy
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
hahahahahahahahaha
hahahahah
unlike anna? XDD
BUSHY BUSHYYY
sophie says:
adfksljfapohgabjf
ewww
YOU'VE PUT ME RIGHT OFF MY PORN SOPHIA
[c=6] [b]Sofia.[/b][/c] (+Harley Quinn+) says:
HAHAHAHA

idk, i just felt like recording this particular moment in time

this gives me goosebumps.

it's a crazy situation, but all i need are cigarettes and alcohol

bleugh. went to a super posh 18th last night; it was good but i think i got food poisoning D: i also managed to tell pretty much my whole life story to three very random people, not sure this is such a good thing. on the plus side i feel bright and perky this morning, my hair/general appearance isn't terrible and i somehow came home wearing a very snuggly grey hoodie that isn't mine but i might just have to keep.

i've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots.

My brain's repeating
"If you've got an impulse let it out"
But they never make it past my mouth.

Our youth is fleeting,
Old age is just around the bend.
And I can't wait to go grey.

And I'll sit and wonder
Of every love that could've been
If I'd only thought of something charming to say.

i speak because i can

WELL, this has been an interesting day. i'm feeling exponentially happy and confused and frustrated and jealous and grateful to be alive all at the same time; i'm also quite drunk.
on the plus side i have a tragus piercing and it looks fucking awesome.

i'm going to take you for worse or better.

and you never did learn to let me be

i have char to thank for pretty much this entire post :)

In the breaking of the morning you'll be dancing on the soft lawn
You'll be sinking at the anchor that stopped you from taking my gold
You'll be running up the highway singing
"I'm the king the king of you all!
When you look back to where you started I'll be there waving you on.

i'm not made of successful things.

today i've showered and watched too much american idol to be considered acceptable and driven to costcutters and eaten toast and listened to a lot of cat power.

after it all, when its all said and done
will you come back to me and tell me that
it never was up to you or up to me?

and all i really want is some justice

they should really do something like this in England, i swear it would make politics so much more interesting/relevant.

and i have no concept of time other than it is flying

i like
1. ginger people with pointy teeth
2. eating blackcurrant throat lozenges until my mouth goes numb
3. tesco's 100 record cards for £1
4. orange highlighter pens
5. driving.

people are just people, they shouldn't make you nervous.

back from france, it feels good to be home :)

but oh you caught me sleeping in the power sockets

life update:
screaming orgasms in a seedy cocktail bar in Greenwich followed by a gruesome incestuous play of delights, naps and banter in a college i don't go to (QMC), stolen walnut whips and accidental drunk driving, lots of mix cds for jeff, france tomorrow in an attempt to learn 3 A levels worth of shite.

drive away my heart tonight.

the way you move ain't fair you know

une) i now have a third lobe piercing in my left ear, because of my own boredom and foolishness but it looks kinda funky
deux) i now have TWO new sexy mix cds for jeff
trois) ah damn fail

i wanna live like common people do

Well his coat is torn and frayed
It`s seen much better days
Just as long as the guitar plays
Let it steal your heart away

wild horses couldn't drag me away

i'm going through a random Rolling Stones frenzy; i now have 14 of their albums on my itunes, crazy times. they're bladdy good though.

you know i love you, take off your clothes - it's alright, it's alright

oh how i love a bit of neopets first thing in the morning, not that this obsession is getting ridiculous or worrying or anything. i think my arm is infected from where i had my hpv jab so i'm going to the doctors AGAIN - if the nurse used a dirty needle i swear i'm suing.

you always disappoint me; it's kind of like our running joke, it's really not funny.

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I’m taking far too many chances on these less than idealistic romances

I was waiting for a cross-town train
in the London underground when it struck me
That I've been waiting since birth to find a love
that would look and sound like a movie
So I changed my plans, I rented a camera and a van
and then I called you
"I need you to pretend that we are in love again"
and you agreed to.

I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it
The marker snapped and I yelled "quiet on the set" and then called "action!"
And I kissed you in a style that Clark Gable would have admired (I thought it classic).

you did it again, i knew that you would.

1. i had my third HPV jab today and it hurts like a bitch
2. i have some massive arse headache/sicky feeling
3. sussex haven't emailed back about me applying for the wrong uni course and i'm panicking
4. i have lots of homework due in tomorrow that i really can't face right now
5. my cat was found dead in someone's back garden down the road.

it's not a good day :(

these constant broken heartbeats sound like breakbeats.

Plunge your hand, rip out my spine
Replace it with a UV light
So I can be the beacon of hope that you'd always expected.

oh what i'd give and what i'd take for perseverance.

a) i have a timed essay tomorrow which i haven't prepared for
b) i applied for the WRONG fucking course at uni, this could only happen to me.
c) i've lost my hair straighteners
d) i now have BRIGHT PURPLE and BLOCK ORANGE barry m nail varnishes
e) alice in wonderland was super good

nothing will be what it is because everything will be what it isn't.

download it, do it.